For me, the grotesque is exciting. I discovered this when I was just a little girl, and while taking baths with my older brother, I enjoyed playing with him, making him laugh until I was peeing my legs inside the shower. For me, that caused a lot of pleasure and it wasn’t because of the pee, it was because of the grotesque situation, the weirdness, the unexpected and the unique moment. That’s why when I discovered where my mom keeps her vibrator and decided to film myself using it on my own bed, it caused all sorts of adrenaline throughout my body. While I record, I look at the camera to see myself and think about what would happen if my mom finds this video. As I upload this video to this website, I couldn’t hold back and I masturbated while imagining all my friends reading all this text and imagining me.